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Does anybody know the way, now?

Published 17-Apr-1988 in the Denver Post
Copyright ©1988 by Ed Quillen. All rights reserved.

Back in college, she was sometimes called Trendy Wendy. No matter what the worthy goal -- promoting civil rights, ending the war, boycotting scab lettuce -- you could count on Trendy Wendy to be at the barricades, marching on the side of the angels. Then in 1971, she wandered off to an organic-food commune.

The next time I saw her was in 1982, when she toted a briefcase and drove a BMW. When I greeted her as Trendy Wendy, she haughtily informed me that she was now L. Wanda Nouveau-Riche, an upwardly mobile young urban professional whose corporate responsibilities would not allow her to waste billable time talking to any unproductive hairball that looked like me.

So it was surprising that when we ran into each other last week, she was friendly.

Something in me snapped when they said KIMN radio was leaving the air, she explained. It was the only steadfast thing in my life. I grew up listening to Jay Mack. I drank my first beer on a Monday afternoon after school, cruising around while they counted down the week's top 50. In the big back seat of a '57 DeSoto one summer night in 1965, while they were playing 'Satisfaction,' I lost my....

Never mind, I interrupted. I wasn't there at the time. But I know what you're talking about. That announcement was a shock to all of us. We all knew that the rest of the world might fall apart, but there would always be a 95 Fabulous KIMN.

She nodded. It gave me an awful nostalgia attack. I went to the drawer that holds my keepsakes -- my McCarthy button, my 45 of 'Louie, Louie' by the Kingsmen, old issues of the Realist. You'll never guess what I found there.

An old Family Dog poster?

That, too. But back in a corner, all dusty and faded, I found my old Social Consciousness. Just for the fun of it, I took it out, re-installed it, and started it. But it doesn't work nearly as well as it used to. I thought maybe you'd know why.

I'll need to know more, I prodded.

I'm still a strong supporter of women's rights. But then that Social Consciousness kicked in and said I should support the rights of indigenous peoples to their own ways of life. But most of those cultures, from New Guinea to Afghanistan, are totally male-dominant and oppressive to women. I'd be nothing more than a chattel in one of those cultures I'm supposed to be trying to save. Does that make any sense?

No, I agreed. Any other problems?

My Social Consciousness told me to get involved in a local issue, fighting a proposed gravel pit behind my home.

Why was that a problem?

Because I live in a house with a concrete foundation next to a paved street. To have those things, you need gravel. Besides that, gravel pits provide jobs that provide food and shelter. If everybody says No gravel pit near my house, then eventually our economy, and our ability to provide food and shelter, grinds to a halt. That can't be for the good.

That is a dilemma, I granted. Have you figured any way out of it?

I've tried, but I haven't come up with anything, she confessed. It was so easy to listen to your Social Consciousness back in the 60s, or to ignore it totally and just make money in the 80s. Issues are always simple when you just look at one side of things. I have this awful fear that it's time now to start considering more than one side, and I'm not sure I know how.

My heart sank. You always led the way, I sighed. And now you say you don't know what the way is?

No, I don't, she conceded. For the first time in my life, I don't know. I hoped you did.

I hated to tell her that I didn't know either. But we promised to keep in touch.


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